Good day, good weekend, and most of all, good friends and family

Had a really good weekend. I can't thank my folks enough for their support of my upcoming backpacking trip. On Saturday they took me to REI in Reno and bought me a backpack. REI Crestrail 70.

I have decided that I am going to take a walk.

A few days ago I woke up very late in the afternoon. AGAIN! Actually, it's a fairly normal routine for me. Any of you that know me, know that I've always been a night person, and have suffered with insomnia since I was teenager. I'm like this even when I feel like everything is ok with my life. For whatever reason, though, this time I felt horribly depressed about waking up so late. What a waste. I start thinking about how my life for the last several months has just been one useless shitty day blending into the next. I've lost my ability to see into the future. I'm tired of where I am in my life and in my mind. Feeling completely helpless and stranded. I daydream that I just walk away. Then it occurred to me, why not? Why can't I just walk away? Even just for a little while.